silent hearing

at first
i was told to listen
and i identified noise and distraction

much later the listening
yielded silence
fragmented silence

silence seemed to be
a graceful state,
perhaps the main point

but silence doesn’t teach you ‘what is’
one has to continue to listen to go deeper …


learning to recognise mind chatter
but also subtler forms of mind noise
learning to recognise the distractions
but also its subtler stealthy forms
learning to recognise the biases and filters
also the filters that filter awareness

listening is still listening
always better hearing …
hearing without filters,
without bias
without mind chatter
or without distraction …

regardless of the noise or the silence around us …

Picture by bvdb (whoisbert) may 2015 – @Leuven botanical gardens – Nikon D3300 – x_DSC_1553


Losing the grand view
it’s like a jig-saw

three groups
same course
different perspectives
different timing
all at the same time

Feeling like I’m struck by ADHD
Don’t know where to start
>> Made a mind map

A mind map
brilliant to attach
separate divisions
but now
i’m overwhelmed

there is never enough time
always adding
single threads
than here
than there

time cut up
slices too small
no flow, no silence, useless
help … sigh
not melting

Picture by bvdb (whoisbert) may 2015 – @botanical gardens Leuven – Nikon D3300 – x_DSC_1633


strange … if there was no symmetry,
everything in the universe would be ‘goo’
… and we are part of that symmetry,
aren’t we ..?
… certainly not part of the goo,
are we ..?

beauty is about harmony and symmetry

hence we look for both
to make our world
and to keep ourselves
sedated …

… but it doesn’t work …
the world is also very ugly,
hurtful, painful, horrid,
fulf of fear …
… we often wake up from our sedated lives
in angst, to the ‘nightmare’ of reality …


God is in everything,
in beauty and harmony,
but also in the painful, hurting,
disgusting and lethal parts
of the Universe

But in stead of waking up to this lesser convenient truth,
we bifurcate and create a duality of God against herself.
Good and Evil …

this bifurcated Reality,
harmony versus goo,
this duality in our minds,
is the origin of any conflict in our heads
and of all the wars on earth

mind only wants to see what is convenient and pleasurable.
like symmetry and harmony in beauty …
but that desire, unfortunately,
is very limiting and
hence, our reality,
is extremely deformed,
compared to WHAT really IS


…. on the other hand:
the startling beauty
that is also everywhere around us,
if we are open to seeing it,
in symmetry, harmony and colour,
is exactly what we need
to silence these,
our crazy,
minds, ..

be it just for a few seconds …

seconds that could initiate the end of conflict:
.. the beginning of an ever lasting Peace ..

Picture by bvdb (whoisbert) may 2015 – @Leuven (be) Botanical Gardens – Nikon D3300 – x_DSC_1597 (I think I will put these thoughts on my blog. And wonder whether less people will click “like”) ..