dystopian

an adjective for the societies i wave through
a world i have to sneak through 
a once called my-world
and i see that now it isn’t mine anymore

it has become something alien
defying logic
defying sanity
defying common sense

it is the commons who defy common sense
the parliament as well as the citizens all around

i’ve seen too many empty cities
why was i there?
how did i manage “the fear” 
internal and external?

and yeah, like most, 
i’ve spent more time at home 
in the past 2 years
than the decade before that

my close family is not infected by fear,
i am the most fearful
not from the virus
but i fear the hassles of going around
like you dont get food abroad if not in 3G
whatever that meant to them

but there is a gray zone
the not so dystopian world 
away from the zealots
where things are possible
and hands get shaken
and food is served “illegally”
air in a warm room is shared
cake is eaten by hand

of course i meet those who are most similar to myself
as if the eyes know who is paranoid
and who isnt

i am not an anti vaxxer
i don’t feel at home 
in that equally dystopian world
i’ll get my booster soon
and then i’ll raise my shoulders once again: “who carez”

you can’t fight an endemic disease
all viruses naturally mutate
to a form that will
infect as many as possible
and for that, it has to be
as invisible as possible
and shouldnt cause any real harm …
otherwise, replication is halted