Study time is over. Acquiring knowledge, then passing it on to 7 students during 3 intense days.
Wednesday 2 October was the last day of my teaching. Every morning, I woke up very early to rehearse the material, and the past 4 days were dearly needed to recover from something that felt like a jet-lag.
But something strange is going on:
Still today, my internal task manager is telling me to get up and study. Not only early morning, but different moments during the day. I also still feel the worry of ‘not having done enough’.
Apparently it takes time to debrief my brain circuits to stop the frenzy that had been going on for the past 6 weeks. In a way it compares to unlearning a short term habit.
How the mechanism of ‘interrupt‘ works, I don’t know. This is probably food for neurological research.
My task manager is using the same interrupt circuit in my brain as my instinct or my intuition. 3 completely different mechanisms, but probably using the same internal circuit to interrupt my mental activity, in order to get its attention.
It is this same task manager that is used during meditation classes in order to focus on the task of observing the mental activity that is going on. To observe in order to become aware of the relative importance of the mental mind, and its conceptual images of the entire world, including itself. A task manager that is observing itself is using meta-cognition. But later on, the exercise of meditation might (or not) become something entirely different: awareness.
(awareness and mindfulness are often one and the same thing still part of ‘mind’ but operating on another level. Meta-cognition is part of purely mental activity)