Perhaps the worst feeling?
Usually this sentence is uttered in the first person singular.
Regularly by myself: “Nobody loves me on this Earth”
It can be triggered by the least remark, mishap, …
It is in the air, before it breaks open, like an ulcer.
It has been in the unconscious, building up.
Perhaps many sadnesses, neither of them expressed, coagulate.
A bit like the mechanism behind anger?
Those triggering, have no idea why the reaction is so out of proportion.
When it is just something happening around me that is the trigger, I have no idea why this small thing has such an impact.
making things worse
And then there is another person around who asks: “Is there something wrong?”
And you know they will never understand. (Although they might – and you don’t).
“I’m on my island, leave me alone in my sad little world.”
the easy way out
Sometimes a good night of sleep removes the mood.
Often being in the work, one forgets the mood.
A silent hug, sometimes a miracle,
But don’t give up on me.
I’m now a sad and angry closed oyster.
Please try again,
Perhaps in half an hour,
moods or depression
In my case, moods, just moods. A bad mood is something that lasts half a day, highest a week. You forget the mood and it is gone. One morning you wake up and you have forgotten it was there. After work you remember you had been in a mood earlier that day, but now this is past.
Depression goes deeper. Takes much longer. In depression I don’t want to feel anything anymore. I want to be numb and sleep. I don’t want to interact or go to work. And so a circle starts.
Because being in the flow, awe or inspiration could get me out. But if I’m numb, I don’t see those things. I’m too closed to see them. I don’t want to see them. They are all fake in my distorted perspective.
If you are in a depression, it is time to look for help. This article is only about moods.
nobody loves me is a concept.
It is a core concept, but there are others.
Like my life is useless.
These sentences are repeated again and again in the mind. Mental efforts.
The emotion is sadness, but the emotion just is. The emotion without the mind would flip out of existence after half an hour.
The mind changes sadness into loss of happiness and starts grieving about it.
‘Look what you’ve done to me’ is another trick of the mind: the blame game. Anger is now just around the corner when blaming others for your own mood. And this can even grow into emotional blackmail, if you don’t watch out.
The moment you see your mind at work in your moods, that moment you are out of it. The moment might be very short lived for the deeper moods, but being out can be repeated again. If you repeat being out enough, things change and remain different.