Everything we do, we do by mirroring it through our past. Even if we want to do the opposite of what we have been doing, this is still a decision with the past in memory: one decision to un-follow the past that failed, and now ready to follow the other second option given by that same past.
Going with the present is very ‘unsafe’. There is no more reference point. No comparing with the past. Not even doing the opposite of before.
What are you afraid of?
Seeing things you have never seen before?
Receiving gifts you did not know existed?
Doing things you never even dreamt of?
Disapproval from family and peers?
Falling and getting on your feet again?
If you dare to do this with your eyes and your hands wide open, you will never be bored.
You will not disappoint yourself, you will be authentic.
And those who love you, will love the real you.