finding Truth

finding_truthYou can be against desire, but without desire there will never be an answer to a question.

Without desire no answer to the calling from within, to investigate,
and no attention to the questions of life.

You can be against a method,
but without any method finding any reference will be like looking for a needle in a haystack.

You can be against the teachers,
but without teachers and peers, investigating self will be often a path of self delusion.

You can be against the path, and even if there is none,
just saying that there is no path is a path in itself.

Be aware that there comes a moment that one has to abandon whatever prescription.
Be aware that there comes a moment that one is completely on her/his own.

Any path you follow will only be paved halfway. And then, you are on your own.
The earlier you start paving your path, the less problems you will have in abandoning the teacher, the buddha, the jezus, the master, the guru, the text, the law.

The teachings are not endless.
And there comes a moment that
more practice or
more reading will not mean more progress.

Any subject is like that.
Self Realization is not different.
In order to be creative, you have to go further than the teacher.

Before you choose to abandon the teachings, you will feel alone, without guidance, asking for help, and not getting any. You have followed every rule, and now you are stuck. This is the dark night.

The moment you finally decide to abandon the teachings is a revelation. This is what they mean by β€˜killing the buddha’.
You kill the teachings inside you,
you kill the past.

You will now see clearly,
on your own,
without anyone holding your hand.


20 thoughts on “finding Truth

  1. This makes me think about a line from the movie “Solaris”, based on a novel by a Russian writer whose name escapes me. The line goes something like this: “there are no answers, only choices”. It makes me think hard about what is right/wrong/knowledge and how does the concept (oops, mental constructs, aka CONCEPTS!) of situational ethics figure into this. It all gets messy for my little mind… πŸ™‚

    • I watched that original film by Tarkovsky 20 years ago, but it left a strong impression on me. Things do get messy, and that’s where law comes in, to put all noses in the same direction. Unfortunately law is made by those who are only half a step higher in understanding than the majority of a society.
      Most people stick to these conventions as if their life depended on it. However, I feel that there is a force in the universe that is called love-compassion, penetrating all levels as well as the road without levels. If you have Love, you don’t need a law, and there is only one choice.

  2. Gosh, this resonates for me on so many different levels and I find it equally as difficult to articulate reading it a second time. Wow, writing that leaves me speechless! Remarkably written, well done. πŸ™‚

    • We cannot learn to read and write without an interest in it. This interest is the motivation we need to start to learn anything. We will need some teachers to get well in it. Learning grammar, how to spell correctly. But if we want to write something for an audience, we will have to forget all the petty rules, and use language as a tool. Although some teachers might have taught us how to write an essay, they will never teach us to write a masterpiece. One will have to develop through a lot of exercise ones own style, and often make new rules or forget old ones to accomplish this.

      On a different level: We cannot live without memory, but we are not our past. We cannot live without a mind, but we are not the interpretations and opinions that the ‘google in our head’ proposes. We have a choice. Every new situation in the present is different from anything that ever happened in the past, and we shouldn’t live as programmed robots.
      Does this make sense? πŸ™‚

    • “You kill the teachings inside you, you kill the past.”
      Killing is the word used by the Zen master who said to ‘kill the buddha’. Zen is provocative. The past shouldn’t become a hindrance against further investigation. The rules of the past should be replaced by spiritual creativity on your own level. No flat new age thinking, just becoming “The seventh step is Space. Only Compassion remains. No more limits. No more ethics. Only limitless Compassion.” from
      Nansen Fugan (748–834) wrote: β€œThe Way does not belong to knowing or not knowing. To know is to have a concept; to not know is to be ignorant. If you truly realize the Way of no doubt, it is like the sky: wide open and vast emptiness. How can you say β€˜yes’ or β€˜no’ to it?”

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