Without desire no answer to the calling from within, to investigate,
and no attention to the questions of life.
You can be against a method,
but without any method finding any reference will be like looking for a needle in a haystack.
You can be against the teachers,
but without teachers and peers, investigating self will be often a path of self delusion.
You can be against the path, and even if there is none,
just saying that there is no path is a path in itself.
Be aware that there comes a moment that one has to abandon whatever prescription.
Be aware that there comes a moment that one is completely on her/his own.
Any path you follow will only be paved halfway. And then, you are on your own.
The earlier you start paving your path, the less problems you will have in abandoning the teacher, the buddha, the jezus, the master, the guru, the text, the law.
The teachings are not endless.
And there comes a moment that
more practice or
more reading will not mean more progress.
Any subject is like that.
Self Realization is not different.
In order to be creative, you have to go further than the teacher.
Before you choose to abandon the teachings, you will feel alone, without guidance, asking for help, and not getting any. You have followed every rule, and now you are stuck. This is the dark night.
The moment you finally decide to abandon the teachings is a revelation. This is what they mean by ‘killing the buddha’.
You kill the teachings inside you,
you kill the past.
You will now see clearly,
on your own,
without anyone holding your hand.