“The last prince on a white horse, fell into a wishing well and was never again seen thereafter. A strange lady dressed in a white titanium armour with a palladium sword is training the Cinderellas and Snow-whites of our time from the roof of her Aston Martin. I saw her three weeks ago, in the Punjab, as she was giving courses to Kali and Maitreya.” (useless visions – oct 2012 – whoisbert)
Triggers of Past and Future, Fear and Hope, … there is only Here and Now, and Compassion
It is incredibly sad, to see what some monsters do to innocent children. But I cannot refrain from reading news about children. I feel too much compassion. Many weeks ago, the disappearance of a 5 y.o. in Wales. One week earlier a Bengali man killing his friend’s wife and all their children …. so so sad.
TV-news I haven’t watched purposely in a decade. I think our world is sick in presenting the most sensational (the most horrible) news first in order to attract viewers. Most of the time, we are not concerned. What could we possibly have done to stop the cruelties in Rwanda 15 years ago. Why show us those images.
But I want to be informed, so now and so often, I read the headlines on the Internet, .. without pictures, most of the time.
However, during my stay in India last year, there was a period, longer than 10 days, without any news. And it did not make me less informed. In fact, being unaware of the world as depicted in the newspapers, and on television, just gave me more time to concentrate on the important things in life.
So since I’m back, I noticed that reading the news on the Internet is nothing more but passing time, it has little to do with being informed, so I ask myself the question these days whether I should stop reading about local and world events altogether.
I have to be ready for the events in my own life, and I shouldn’t be triggered or taken by 2nd hand emotions from news that does not really concern me. What about the third hand emotions from TV-series and movies?
… but … that is the theory …
Some news is not avoidable. Probably because it does concern me. That kind of news will find me no matter what. A school bus has an accident in a tunnel in Switzerland and 20 children, some from my own town, die. A madman in Norway starts firing his gun on young people, and 75 of them die, some from around here.
How mixed up do my emotions get when my daily morning train crashes into an intercity and 17 people die. Why am i not on that train? My neighbour’s wife got severely injured, and the child that was in her belly at the time, has to find her own different way through society because of that event.
We cannot control things. There is an unending series of interconnected causes and effects going on, in something we call the universe. It is our minds that are suffering. Our bodies feel pain, but we do not necessarily suffer because of that pain.
I noticed that in my life I suffered a lot because of my own anger and fear. And that my fear is the predecessor of my anger. And my fear, can be triggered by reading about the daily events in the news. And my anger can be triggered by reading about injustice. And in both cases I suffer. Even hope makes me suffer, since it makes me feel worse at a present than in an imagined future.
Having first hand experienced this knowledge about myself has made me stronger, less hopeful and less fearful.
… Perhaps Kali represents the past and the fear, and Maitreya represents the future and the hope. And I know that I can live without them. Leaving my suffering with them, and experiencing my real self moment to moment, sad and happy, angry and peaceful, but without hope or fear.