There is no sanity, neither is there insanity. There is only humanity, individual beings trying to survive in an incomprehensible world. We all cope with the pain – around us and done to us – in a different way. And sometimes we can’t cope with it. Whatever way, it is our survival instinct. Whatever coping mechanism, we are suffering nonetheless.
It seems that everyone on earth has two things in common: a survival mechanism, and suffering. For some the suffering is incomprehensible. Suffering is always mental. Suffering is not physical pain. But physical pain can lead to suffering. The fear that the physical pain will continue or intensify leads to severe or immense suffering. The fear that the mental pain will never end leads to extreme suffering. Mental suffering can and does often lead to physical pain.
Sometimes fear evaporates, for a moment, sometimes longer … In that moment we are free, until fear comes back, or regret, or guilt, or anything that will make us suffer again …
… we are not alone … few are the beings on earth without suffering, without fear … seeing suffering in others can bring above the most beautiful kindness, the kindness of compassion. Suffering is the one and only thing we all have in common. It could bring us all closer together.
The survival mechanism blocks love. Fear is the opposite of Love. When the survival mechanism goes into overdrive, the self becomes fragmented and fear becomes uncontrollable. A strong wall of fear might protect against further damage. However, love cannot penetrate it any more. When in fear, I do not trust love, neither do I trust compassion.
Human beings, beings in general, might not be trustworthy, but the love and compassion they give, definitely is. The love given by us human beings is just not a steady stream, often just a flickering of light.
So, in the end, we fear our own craving for the steady stream.
My craving creates my Wall.