moods and disconnection

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Which part of that mood is mental?
Which part of my mood is emotional?

Why can’t this mood
be broken
by a moment of awe?

When is a mood too deep,
and why is that so,
and what is eventually needed,
… to step out of it?

* – * – * – *

Some solitude is enjoyed ..
but so much of it is needed.

15 minutes
isn’t enough
most of the time

A Total disconnection from
the ’causes’ of intolerance
is dearly needed.

my mental activity
the only cause

what surrounds me
is barely controllable
it has the same nature
as waves incessantly
touching the coastline

… then,
after A LONGER while,
a much longer period of a silent mind
tolerance returns …

* ° * ° * ° * °

should I claim my time alone
and nurture (my)self,
[-: in order to be a nice person :-]
on a daily basis,

or is this claim
any claim
the controlling mind
trying to control
while backgrounding

Pictures by bvdb (whoisbert) april 2014 @home – Canon Ixus HS230 – IMG_7409/08/05/03

strawberry, smiling …

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Sometimes, Somewhere …
we meet an irresistible smile
It leaves us as speechless
even more
as whatever beauty
we could possibly encounter.

Pictures by bvdb (whoisbert) april 2014 / july 2013 – @home – Canon Ixus HS230 – IMG_7199/95/93/3886

gooseberry flowers

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a very sweet berry,
picked early in June
and a delicious ingredient
of gooseberry pie

but I’ve always wondered
about their flowers
where and when to find them

hence I kept my eyes open
in time used the macro
and put these tiny beauties
in a well deserved spotlight

Pictures by bvdb (whoisbert) april 2014 – @home – Canon Ixus HS230 – IMG_7209/62/66/67

the anti-audience

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There is something like an anti-audience.

Often we perform for an audience, like Osho said,
things we wouldn’t do if we were the last person on earth.

But I notice that there is an audience
in which presence I (c)(w)ouldn’t do
any of the things I’d love to do.
(I’m not talking about North Korea)

Is it the anti-audience that keeps me from being creative?


the anti-audience is in my head,
in my mental mind:

the anti-audience are the people
to whom I wouldn’t like to show
any vulnerability.

I can be vulnerable and open whenever I want.
My mental mind is keeping me from being free.

Pictures by bvdb (whoisbert) april 2014 – @home – Canon Ixus HS230 – IMG_7286/87/89 – IMG_7348

forty years observing systems

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Forty years ago, the trees in the above pictures were about 2 metres high. And I must have been about ‘a head’ shorter than today.
When I rediscovered these trees, I had to go far back in time, to identify the place. In those days, on the left, there were thousands of Xmas trees, and on the right side of the path, tiny poplars. Mind tries to fill in the gaps, but the place is on the brink of becoming unidentifiable.

Mind doesn’t like this unidentifiability.
It wants a steady state. All the time!
This is the drama of permanizing.

Mental mind wants to hold on to power at any position, trying to create a steady identity, a controllable world.
Stifling its own innovation, stifling creativity, stifling any dynamism, only in order to control impermanence …

A system, an organisation, a business, a club, is a set of many identities — many minds wanting to control their own little worlds.
And when the majority of identities hold on to their power, (and they usually do)
the system turns into a monster:

Inside the system: dictators at all levels, hitlers and executioners.
At the smallest scales: a reception desk; people behind a counter …
At the largest scales: superpower states and multinational enterprises.

Those minds who want to hold on to their control of permanence and power,
all become dictators, in so many ways and colours as the mind can invent.

All these systems, once started from a creative idea, an internal drive, an individual, a group of friends …

But as time evolves all the individuals in the system will resist change!

[... time is change --  it is measured as a change: "The second is the duration of 9 192 631 770 periods of the radiation corresponding to the transition between the two hyperfine levels of the ground state of the cesium 133 atom." ]

Now there is a problem: a strange rule concerning time dictates that there is a ‘need for growth’ which implies change.

But this growth needs to be controlled by all means, thus rules an regulations are invented to control this so called ‘growth’. We get a cocktail of subsystems and people. And all these people and levels of organisation will resist change. While proclaiming growth, they hold on to all their regulations in such a way that growth becomes a struggle against itself.

… growth needs HR …

[what a demeaning name: human resources -- humans as a resource, like a fertilizer or an energy source]

People get hired. They are left unaware of the spirit of the founding friends, and will follow the rules that give them power and control like soldiers, later sergeants and majors, resisting any change … creating a kind of “Stanford Prison Experiment” (or why not, the NSA)

Somewhere in that process, most often, the original founders get pushed aside, or they leave themselves.

And so seemingly all by itself, the system, office, organisation, school, state, business …  has become a monster.
A system where following rules and regulations has completely replaced creativity and where the sentence:

“it’s not my duty to replace a light bulb”

will reverberate against the marble walls of the newly inaugurated headquarters …


Pictures by bvdb (whoisbert) march 2014 – @waterforest – Canon Ixus HS230 – IMG_6766-6767-6815-6817

ginny gee experiment

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Not intended to be a blog post …
… just an experiment to silence my curiosity,
and to be shared with Michael Lai,
who has this wonderful photo travel blog, and
whose experiments on inversion
stirred this follow up experiment.

Pictures by bvdb (whoisbert) march 2014 – @botanique-Leuven(be) – Canon Ixus HS230 – IMG_6925

un-knowing karma

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there’s nothing wrong with the concept of karma
neither is anything worng with the concepts of heaven and hell
in fact, there is nothing wrong with any concept
at least when we realize that a concept is just that
a concept: knowledge classified in a brain

and the knowledge contained
might be correct and verifiable
like in physics
or this knowledge might be incorrect,
and its in-correctness verifiable
like in physics

or not

and remain
in the un-knowing

it goes wrong when I hear myself think:
“I wonder what (s)he did in his past life to deserve this”
it goes completely wrong when
a state creates a classfull society founded on
“past lives and past experiences”
and already predefines your life
and how it should be
based on your roots.

There is a book with that name, “Roots”

there is no classless society today on earth …
societies attract the wrong people to power
societies attract the wrong people to money
regardless of the constitution of a state …

so not to make things worse that are already bad,
no empirically unverifiable concept
should ever be part
of the foundations
of a society


no empirically unverifiable concept
should ever be abused
by my overly judgemental brain

Pictures by bvdb (whoisbert) march 2014 – @botanique Leuven – Canon Ixus HS230 – IMG_6864-6865-6866-6867